Couch time.

Sitting on my couch. Just me tonight, that girl who looks like me had to work. I thought I had plans, but I really don't...should have said yes when they called to see if I wanted to work tonight. But, I loathe that place and I work the next 4 days, so I think I needed the down time.

I'm positive my heart needs some healing. I haven't been inspired to work on my book for a few weeks now it seems. The deadline I set isn't going to get met and I hate that because it's like I just gave up. However, it will get done and I'd rather finish it when I'm inspired than just pour some words onto a page just to say I finished it. Still happy with where it's going, just not sure where to go with it next.

I'm trying not to be bothered right now. So many stressful things, painful things, confusing things are running through my mind/life, but I'm trying to remind myself how lucky I am and think about all of the many, many good things I have in my life too. Those make me smile. Moments like tonight when I'm alone though are sometimes dreadful because all I do is think.

I'm gonna put in a Western now though, hoping that it will not only spark inspiration, but also put a smile on my face...love these movies. I wish my Poppy was sitting on the couch next to me, we always like to watch these together. I'm sure he's back in Okie sitting on the couch watching one as we speak, eating a big ole bowl of his famous popcorn. So maybe we're watching one together afterall. :)

Hope you are all well...

OKIE love.

-Lyssa