Why not be happy? :)

I've been on a long stretch of tired days and nights lately. There's been a lot going on around here; both good and bad, stressful and peaceful. It's a funny thing our mind. It takes us on all these little journey's and obstacles. Circumstances happen, and our mind has this split second to decide where to take them. In that tiny second, that instant decision takes you on it's own path. It's just a crazy thought, huh?

I watched a movie tonight. Quite an odd one, really....one of those Indie films that makes no sense at all really, but then again perfect sense. I love Indie films because they seem so real, it's like real life, not fairytale. Anyway there was thought in it that one of the characters had about our future. How should we look @ it? Should we look way ahead into where our lives will lead us, marriage and babies and jobs...followed by let downs, and success. OR should we look at the future as the next minute, the next day...the next thought. Think about it...right now, is part of my future the next sentence i'm going to type? It's wild right? But it partly is. I think it's all our future. I think about the next chapter of my life...getting a "real" job, moving 10 hours away from home, but sometimes that just bring so much fear and anxiety...along with excitement and anxiousness. But sometimes...I just like to think about tomorrow...or the rest of my night. Thinking about what book i'm going to read before I go to bed is a lot less stressful than the previously mentioned. haha. It's all a part of my future...it all leads me to THE future. Eternity. :) There is definitely peace in that. :) Gahlee...I shouldn't watch Indie movies. ;)

Do you ever feel akward...better yet, do you ever not? Seriously, I think my life is defined by akward moments...even conversations with some of the people closest to me can sometimes have that feeling of....akwardness. Someone once told me that in regular conversation, be it phone or face to face, there are akward moments of silence every 7 seconds. You'll all now notice this next time you're talking with someone, and the more you try to be aware of it, and avoid it, the more it will creep up on you, believe me, i tried it. So if it's so common, when does it become not akward any more, but just a social norm? Did that make any sense?

Ok...enough philosophical random ramblings that watching a weird movie just threw into my head. How about my life?

I only have 3 days of work left before I have to leave the job to go back to school. I'm kinda sad about it. When I got this job I just figured it'd be some quick, easy, cash to fulfill my summer travel needs. It definitely became something that I enjoyed though. I got to watch 2 great kids. We had lots of fun, and I think I learned a lot about patience, and nurturing. It was good for me. My boss ended up being really cool too, we had lots of talks about what seemed like everything about life. I'm definitely gonna miss that.

I'm really starting to see how God works and how he uses people in our lives to teach and guide us. There are so many people in my life right now that I feel that with. It's such a beautiful thing, and I hope I get to do that for someone someday too. amazing, amazing.

I'm learning that life is all about ups and downs. Cloud 9 to dirt cheap type of things, but all wrapped together, it all works and it's all necessary. I'm trying to roll with the punches and just enjoy every little moment and take something from all of it.

You know, I have good people in my life. Awesome family and friends and mentors...all of them such blessings.

Life throws you curves, but I have an awesome God...and I'm starting to see that more and more. Why not be happy? :)

and also, I'm ready to be in Nashville this weekend. last random thought, ha. :)

alright...gonna turn on some heathaaa morgan, my artist of choice these past few nights, and try to catch some zzz's.

Let it be. :)

sendin' out the OKIE love.
--Lyssa